... in which I kill time by the hour ...

Jun 25, 2012

And then he was gone

There's nothing much to be said about it, really. It's over now. 

He's gone. 

And I feel nothing but just a great big emptiness inside me, like my whole body has been hollowed out. I didn't even cry. I couldn't. There's nothing left. 

My mother is the strongest woman on earth, I think sometimes. She sent him off with a smile, knowing full well she will never see his face with her naked eyes again. I can only imagine what she's feeling inside now.

Dad is pretty similar, too. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry when he said his son's happiness is his own and that's all that matters right now. There is just nothing I can add to that.

I will also have to leave at the end of this week. Turns out I will be gone for my Teaching Practicum for an entire month. A part of me wants my sister and her husband and kids to come over and stay in my room until I come back. I don't want my parents to spend the first half of Ramadan alone, just the two of them in an empty house, so soon after Bro left. In any case, Sis will probably come over often anyway; she is possibly more worried about Mum and Dad than I am.

That's it, I suppose. There is nothing more I can say about this. I don't think the whole ordeal and its implications have entirely sunk in yet. Maybe that's why I feel so hollow. Maybe the waterworks are on the way, biding their time. Whatever. I can't be bothered anymore. I'm just tired.

19 comments:

  1. *hugs* Because I honestly have no idea what to say.

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    1. You don't have to. A hug is really all I needed :) Thanks anyway, bb

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    2. Hyung ~ *mega-glomps* i miss you and i love you :33

      Himnae!!

      p.s. I prolly wont reply to the response,if any, cuz i dunno how to.

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    3. The above comment was left by Lisa fyi :)

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    4. Lisa xD *glomps back* HIIII How have you been? Ughh, miss you guys so much <3

      Since when have I been your "hyung"? :P You old hag :P lol lol jk jk

      *hugs*

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    5. Hehs :) old hag am i? It'll soon be ur turn so im not really affected by it :p

      Yea, i've dubbed thee my hyung :D live with it! <3

      p.s. Im doing pretty good thanks for asking ^^

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    6. Though I no longer call you it, I still think of you as my hyung, too :P

      No prob ^^ I miss you twitter buddies muchly <3

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  2. Should i feel special? :D

    I voluntered to administer your marriage ceremony when it happens. ur fiancee didnt reply to that comment though ><

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    1. My "fiancee'? Already? I didn't even know that had happened lol xP

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    2. Oh whats that i hear??

      Sounds like Nana screaming. You're in deep shit hyung :p

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    3. *tosses you toilet paper* :D

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  3. p.s. Okay so my husband tells me i shouldnt be so nit-picky and anal about such things but..
    Why do u always clump me together with others? :)
    I say i miss you, you reply with i miss you guys O.O
    ~ not trying to imply anything, just curious is all ^^

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    1. Your husband is right :P

      Hmm it's not exactly my intention to clump you with others. Just that when I say I miss you, I remember everyone else I talk with on twitter and LJ too, so I end up expressing that, too ^^ No hidden meanings.

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  4. Ah icic :)

    Dammit hes right again >.<

    His ego will get so inflated if he knows so this convo never hapened :D

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    1. *nods* It never happened. I won't say a word about this ;)

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    1. There can never be enough glompage in the world.

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